can't stop, won't stop: september [2]

I'm crushing on this playlist so hard, and I can't stop/won't stop playing it on repeat:

• I Love U by Chris Brown
  Mary by Patty Griffin
  Djohariah by Sufjan Stevens
  Teenage Dream by Katy Perry
  Maroon 5's entire Hands All Over CD (Stutter, in particular)
  
  

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This time I really need to do things right
Shivers that you give me keep me freezing all night
You make me shut up

I can't believe it
I'm not myself
Certainly I'm thinkin' about no one else
You make me shut up

I really, I really
I really need to know
Or else you gotta let me go

You're just a fantasy, girl
It's an impossible world
All I want is to be with you always
I'll give you everything
Pay some attention to me
All I want is just you and me always

Give me affection
I need your protection
'Cause it feels so good you make me st-stutter, stutter

If I could touch you, I'd never let you go
Now you got me screaming
And I cannot shut up

Now I'm laying on a bedroom floor
Barely even speaking and I cannot get up

And I really, I really
I really need to know
Or else you gotta let me go, oh

You knock me down, I can't get up
I'm stuck
Gotta stop shaking me up
I can't eat
Can't sleep
Can't think sane
You've got me under, sinking under

but to my surprise, no reason why...

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have i ever told you before

i think you're beautiful when you're sleeping?

i have faith you watch me in my slumber, too

if i'm all that you're looking for

tell me, why is there a river streaming

down your face?

sometimes it makes me wonder all about

your love

(love love love)

after some time, it's something i've found true:

love's not a grave

it won't decay on you

too many days, i was afraid of love love love

(love love)

what if nothing is just that

and the only thing we're good at's dreaming

oh, yea, we're dreamers

picture that: a whole world in slumber

but don't get too attached to the living

even every single memory's fleeting

that's a fact

but to my surprise, no reason why,

one day i woke up and realized...

(love love love love)

after some time, it's something i find true:

love's not a grave

it won't decay on you

too many days, i was afraid of your love

(love love love love)

give it to me, love

i'll keep you in my focus with love & affection

This has been a pretty great week.

Absolutely exhausting, but great. I had no idea working as a photographer's assistant would be as physical as it is. Hauling equipment to and from shoots, setting up, breaking down, running around set... I'm ready to drop the second I get home. But it's good. I'm meeting a lot of new people and making contacts left & right. Several teachers have asked me for my information so they can request me as their primary sub. :) Thank you, God.

With the yearbook sponsor and parent volunteers as Wester MS

I'm loving middle schools and their students more and more every day, and it's definitely where I want to teach. I shot my first elementary school last week, though, and my word, those kids were adorable. Pictures were taken during their P. E. classes, so often the students had fifteen to twenty minutes to kill before it was time to go back to their classrooms. One class had come directly from the library and begged me to read to them. Sitting in that gym, surrounded by second graders, reading aloud Monsters Are Everywhere, I felt as if my heart might burst. The way those kids looked at me...it made me know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'm supposed to be a teacher.

Downtime at Liberty HS

I even made a new friend! One of the teachers I met last week is a first-year who went through the same alternative certification program as me. He's around my age and even lives about five miles from my house as it turns out. Matt's been really sweet to encourage me about finding a teaching job. He's giving me pointers, showing me how to make lessons plans, and going to request me as a sub for his class soon when he's absent for jury duty. I'm so excited to have a teacher friend in Grapevine! Sometimes it can be so isolating here, but meeting new people who have been where I am makes me feel like I'm not alone and that there's hope.

With fellow assistant Kimber and photographer Greg at Maus MS

God's plan almost never makes sense to me, but I think I'm finally starting to get it. I know he's placed me in this job so that I can be in schools, meet teachers, and work with kids. This just has to work out, don't you think? :)

mishmash: september

So, I'm currently on my way to yet another fall picture day at yet another middle school. And while I basically enjoy what I do, this morning I am in the grumpiest mood ever and totally dreading it. Once I get there and see all the kids, hopefully I'll perk up...but so far all I want to do is crawl back into bed. Calling in sick doesn't exactly work, though, when you live with AND work for your parents. How would that even work? "Sorry, Dad, I won't be coming downstairs today." Yea. Right.

I realllllly need to begin all my applications to substitute teach, but I'm having a hard time getting motivated (surprise, surprise).

My "new" medicine makes me SICK AS A DOG and I hate whoever created it.

It's becoming rapidly apparent that the last three months of a long distance relationship are the hardest. Now that we're so close to Mitch moving only an hour away, it feels like the days are dragging by. And I'm getting increasingly impatient. I miss him so much. C'mon, December!

Yes, I realize this is just a mishmash of information and complaints, but I started the morning off with nausea, a bad hair day and burnt toast. If this any indication for how the rest of the day is going to go, I'm screwed.

Oh, and my father is possibly the most annoying driver in the world. You served in two wars, Dad. Can't you drive a little faster?

Sometimes I wonder (and worry)...





Will I always be a drifter?

can't stop, won't stop: september [1]

It's September and I'm currently crushing on...

• This playlist:
  1. Elevator Love Letter by Stars
  2. Misery by Maroon 5
  3. Your Love is a Song by Switchfoot
  4. Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap
  5. 3oh!3's entire Streets of Gold CD

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Fabulous weekend in College Station to kick off fightin' Texas Aggie FOOTBALL SEASON (a-whoop!) and now it's time to enjoy a leisurely Labor Day here in Grapevine. Kisses!

elevator love letter

i'm so hard for a rich girl
my heels are high, my eyes cast low
and i don't know how to love
i get too tired after midday lately

i take it out on my good friends
but the worst stays in
oh, where would i begin?

my office glows all night long
it's a nuclear show and the stars are gone
elevator, elevator, take me home

don't go
say you'll stay
spend a lazy sunday in my arms
i won't take anything away




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