djohariah

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...

go on, little sister
go on
for the world is yours, world is yours
all the wilderness of the world is yours to enjoy

go on, little sister, go on
for you're beautiful, [beautiful]
all the fullness of the world is yours

can't stop, won't stop: september [2]

I'm crushing on this playlist so hard, and I can't stop/won't stop playing it on repeat:

• I Love U by Chris Brown
  Mary by Patty Griffin
  Djohariah by Sufjan Stevens
  Teenage Dream by Katy Perry
  Maroon 5's entire Hands All Over CD (Stutter, in particular)
  
  

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This time I really need to do things right
Shivers that you give me keep me freezing all night
You make me shut up

I can't believe it
I'm not myself
Certainly I'm thinkin' about no one else
You make me shut up

I really, I really
I really need to know
Or else you gotta let me go

You're just a fantasy, girl
It's an impossible world
All I want is to be with you always
I'll give you everything
Pay some attention to me
All I want is just you and me always

Give me affection
I need your protection
'Cause it feels so good you make me st-stutter, stutter

If I could touch you, I'd never let you go
Now you got me screaming
And I cannot shut up

Now I'm laying on a bedroom floor
Barely even speaking and I cannot get up

And I really, I really
I really need to know
Or else you gotta let me go, oh

You knock me down, I can't get up
I'm stuck
Gotta stop shaking me up
I can't eat
Can't sleep
Can't think sane
You've got me under, sinking under

vito's ordination song, among other things

I think I'm (getting) sick.

It started when I woke up Sunday morning. Mitch and I both weren't feeling well, but we wrote it off as a very well-deserved hangover. But now it's Tuesday and, I have to say, I'm feeling about the same. Yesterday I did as much work as possible and left early to rest, ie. I "napped" from 3:45pm to 6:30 this morning. Holy hell. And how am I still tired...?

To be honest, though, I'm chronically fatigued. So far I've been managing by becoming increasingly dependent on energy drinks... Probably not the best idea. I need to visit my doctor and see what's up, but man, I hate shit like that. I just want to be healthy all the time. But, alas, it's only 8:30am and I can already feel myself fighting the urge to sleep. Goddamnit.

And listening to (completely fabulous) smooth, soothing songs like Vito's Ordination Song* by Sufjan Stevens isn't helping the matter.

...

I always knew you in your mother's arms

I have called your name

I have an idea, placed in your mind, to be a better man

I've made a crown for you

I've put it in your room

and when the bridegroom comes, there will be noise

there will be glad

and a perfect bed

when you write a poem, I know the words

I know the sounds before you write it down

when you wear your clothes, I wear them, too

I wear your shoes

and your jacket, too

I always knew you in your mother's arms

I have called you "son"

I've made amends between Father and son,

or if you haven't one...

rest in My arms

sleep in My bed

there's a design to what I did and said

*The acoustic version is also absolutely stunning.